I told my husband that it would be cool for the congregation of the church we serve to take turns giving their testimonies on Sunday nights. He said “That is a great idea…you wanna go first?” Well another instance of sticking my foot in my mouth. Since most of the people in the church know my testimony (how I cam to know Jesus) so I thought I would do a statement of faith instead. (What I believe) The following is what I said this past Sunday evening.
My personal statement of faith.
I wanted to take this opportunity to let my friends and church family know that I am not just a pastor’s wife, a mother, a daughter, a friend, or even just a woman. I am a child of God and I believe that He chose me specifically and created me to be an individualized person for the sole purpose of praising and worshiping him, and spreading His word to grow and expand HIS kingdom.
With that being said I would like to tell you just what I do believe in.
I believe in God the father, God the Son, and God the Holy Spirit.
God is the Creator of the universe and all life, the Sustainer of all things and He is held above all things; totally separate from His own creation. He is Holy and perfectly righteous, all-powerful, all knowing, all present, eternally unchanging in his attributes and in His plans for us. He is love and thus he establishes personal relationships with those who are called His people.
Jesus Christ is the Son of God. He was conceived of the Holy Spirit, born of a virgin. He was crucified, dead and buried, and on the third day he rose from the dead and ascended into heaven and today sits at the right hand of the Father awaiting the word for His return. He was sinless throughout His entire life, with His mission being to come to earth to die on the Cross for our sins so that whoever believes in Him would be saved and have eternal life. He is 100% God and 100% Man. I believe He will come back again to judge the entire world.
I believe in the Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit was poured out all flesh. His purpose is to convict Man of sin, uphold righteousness. He directs Man to Christ as the Savior of the world and aids believers in their walk and growth in Christ.
The Bible is the inspired Word of God. It is infallible in its authority. It is the ultimate guidebook from God to Man, being necessary and sufficient for every person to know, everything needed for salvation and living a life on Earth for Christ. As the ultimate authority, whatever it says is to be obeyed.
I believe that salvation is a free gift of God that we have to choose to accept. It is a gift that God never takes back nor can we ever loose it.
I believe that Adam and Eve were our first parents, sinned against God by rebelling against Him and disobeying His first commandment. This original sin resulted in the fall of man. Death and suffering entered God’s Creation and Man died spiritually and will someday die physically. Because of Adam’s fall, all Men are born sinful, and confirm their sinfulness by breaking His law continually. The Fall affects our entire being, in such a way that we are unable to choose good even when given the choice, and unable to find God on our own.
Although God alone is who saves us, evangelism by preaching is necessary as God is the one who commanded us to do so. (The great commission) In brokenness and repentance over their sins, His people would by faith alone accept Jesus Christ as their Savior, therefore their sins are forgiven and Christ’s righteousness is displayed to them, thus living each day in obedience to God. They learn to grow in Christ everyday by cooperating with the Holy Spirit in their walk.
I believe in the sacraments of the Lord; Baptism as a public profession of faith; the Lord’s supper as a remembrance of Lord’s sacrifice on the Cross and waiting for His coming again. Without these two important aspects of our Christian walk, I believe we can not effectively do what God created us to do, which is love and worship him with all of our heart, mind, soul, and strength.
With all of that in mind…I believe we are all sinners by nature AND by choice, (including myself) saved by the grace of God. I am not perfect and being a pastor’s wife shouldn’t require any more expectations than anyone else around me. There are days I don’t feel like being at church, but I am here and working for God because I know that is where he wants me in my life. I may not be able to play the piano, sing the best, or even walk a perfect walk with my Lord. My children aren’t perfect, my husband and I argue, my house isn’t spotless, and yes I even loose my temper.
So exactly who am I….
I AM the wife of a pastor who loves the flock that he pastors with everything I have. I love being married to a man who is totally passionate about God, whose faith never falters, and makes being a Christian look easy. A mere man who makes me feel special, who cares nothing for image, and who likes to have fun. I love that my husband’s calling, while it is demanding and stressful at times, it also is flexible and allows him to do things like take me to breakfast at the spur of the moment. I love that we eat lunch together on most days and that he has time for our family even when he is working. He gives 500% to the ministry of making disciples for Jesus and is always about his Fathers business of saving souls.
I am a mother who would lay her life down for anyone of my 8 kids, plus a few others, J and faces the same struggles in motherhood as most of you. I am not a perfect mom and I have, do and will make mistakes. My children are not perfect kids, even though they too are labels as “the pastor’s kids” and more is expected of them. I hope and pray that as a mother I have taught them to do their best in all that they do and to follow the Lord with all their heart, mind, soul, and strength.
I am the daughter of an extraordinary mother who taught me morals in this life that have helped me in my Christian walk today. I know right from wrong because of what she taught me as a child. I think God everyday for the foundation of Christ that she made sure I had as a child. I know she spent many sleepless nights praying for my walk with the Lord and I know she is proud of me for the strides I have made in that area of my life.
I am a friend to many. They too would reap the benefits of me giving up my life to save theirs. If you have taken the opportunity to get to know me and become my friend, you would know that I would never abandon a friend in need. If a friend is struggling in their walk, I would lift them up in prayer, listen, give solicited advice, and pick them up and help them find their way back to the path that leads to the Lord. John 15:13 says this… “Greater love hath no man than this, that a man lay down his life for his friends.”
As a woman, well I fall way short of what God has intended for my life. I have had many broken paths in my life, all of them because of choices I made, along with refusing to surrender my life to God the Father. I have lived a life that may not have been 100% for God in the past, but because of a gracious and forgiving God, my sins have been cast as far away as the east is from the west. God gave me the pleasure of giving birth to a child, and the grief of watching that child close her eyes for the last time and enter into eternal rest with our risen Savior. God allowed me to have been a victim of being abused as a child by a family member and a family friend, and lived in an abusive relationship, so that I might be able to help people in those situations. God helped me work through the pain of burying my father knowing he was not saved and spending eternity in hell, and gave me the joy of watching my husband lead his father to the Lord the night before he died. God blessed me to have never tried any kind of recreational drugs but be addicted to prescription painkillers, so that I might have a taste of what my husband went through all those years when he lived in the world. Praise God I have never beaten a child but He gave me the courage to heal the wounds of those who have been beaten. I have hurt others in my life and I have been hurt. I have been happy and I have been sad. I have been lost….and I was found.
I strive everyday to be the best person that God created me to be. I’m passionate about teaching the amazing truth of God’s Word. I am outwardly fun loving but secretly shy. Most days I am joyful, and casual. I hate mustard, bugs, racism, doing dishes and cheesy B movies. I love music, chocolate, dancing, flowers, rainbows, laughter, and the beach. I only tell you these things about my life and thoughts as a “not so perfect” pastor’s wife because I want you to know I am human. A human living, learning, and loving to do everything I do in the Lord.
No I am not perfect. Yes I make mistakes. But I do strive to be the best child of God that I can be.