10 years…already?

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My dear Husband,

I can’t believe that it has been 10 years since we got married. How can I even begin to put words to the feelings that I have for you? What being your wife feels like? Can I even describe how you make me feel?

Do you remember when we were first dating? Remember spending every spare moment with each other and spending the moments we couldn’t spend together thinking about each other? Do you remember me falling asleep while talking to you on the phone? We would talk on the phone for hours after the girls went to bed and then I would look at the clock and realize I had to be at work in 30 minutes? Two O’clock came awful early on those nights. Smiling constantly at just the thought of getting off work and seeing each other? Do you remember the time you held me down and made me say I love you before you would let me up? The joy of just being in love and knowing you were loved back just as much?  Do you know what is better than falling asleep in your arms every night? Waking up in them every morning. I consider it a joy to wake up each and everyday and look at you and fall in love with you all over again. It is a blessing to fall in love all over again (after spending over 20 years apart), with you, but to fall in love with your best friend is rare and has far surpassed my expectations.

We have experienced so much over the last 10 years. The joy of being newlyweds, new jobs, the sorrow of the death of both of our fathers just 32 short days apart. The devastating death of your remarkable mother. Fostering children that weren’t ours.  Adopting so many of our children’s friends as our own.  We have experienced spiritual growth in ways I didn’t know possible, thanks to you entering into the ministry, and having 3 churches to call our home over the last 10 years. We have been through medical issues that I thought were hopeless. My back surgery and subsequent dependency on prescription medication, your surgery that we didn’t think possible without insurance, the trip to the ER thinking you were having a heart attack, my debilitating migraines that would land me in bed for days at a time, or at least unable to function for days and last but not least your ongoing issues with your ankle injury from the wreck that led you to Jesus.

We have experienced the joy of raising a child in the love and admonition of the Lord. I know you are as proud of her as I am. She is truly a child from and of God. I like the fact that even though we were not able to have a child (or two or three or four….) together, that we have 8 individuals on this planet to call our children. Five boys and Three girls are nothing to sneeze at! Even though you were not able to be with me when I had to say goodbye to our angel, Micah, I know that you loved her. The sorrow we have shared together for her has helped me re-enter the world as a productive mother and child of God. For that I thank you and love you more than you will ever know.

The last four years of our life have not been easy. Just seems to me that more than it being a 10 year mark,  more than “just another year in our marriage”, it has been an honest struggle in so many ways but an overall triumph for God’s honor.

This anniversary feels like….a quiet, subtle moment of gratitude. A gratitude to God’s Grace for seeing two imperfect humans through another year. A thank you for getting us through challenges faced. A thank you to you for humbling yourself and the strength you have displayed through some tough situations that we have seen in the last few years. I think we have both grown and learned a lot and I thank you for growing and learning with me instead of dictating to me how life should be.

To say that I love you doesn’t really begin to explain my feelings for you. Our love has grown deeper in Christ and deeper with each other. When we got married 10 years ago, neither one of us knew what the future would hold, but we were excited to finally get to spend our lives together after spending so many years apart, and many broken roads to find our way back to each other. When I think back to that day we were both so full of hope and excitement. Instead we got day after day of being talked about, people not understanding what we were about or what we were trying to do in leading others to a saving relationship with Jesus first and foremost, but also trying to give them a taste of what we have together and that they can have what we have also, if they just submit to Christ. As we both know I had major control issues when we were first married but God showed me how to let you lead in the fashion that he had intended a marriage to be. When I submitted to Him fully….THAT is when I started really living in our marriage. That is when I was truly happy. You were so patient with me and allowed me to find that path on my own, all the while staying grounded in Christ on your own. I think that the joys we experienced were made that much sweeter by the difficulties that we have faced.

That is one of the things I love most about you is how grounded you are in your faith. I love that in the midst of turmoil in our lives, I can lean on you and feel comfort and safety in your arms. You are my safe place. I can trust you with my life, the lives of our children, my crazy feelings, my fears, my dreams. And please know that you are so worthy of all of those things.

Today, on this special day I realize we are once again completely unaware of what the next ten years may hold. But as we continue to walk down that road I know that we will be doing it together and you will be right there holding my hand as we walk through the ugly treacherous valleys and then climb that huge hill back up to the top of that beautiful mountain. I could not imagine life any other way.

I love that we get excited about the same things. The simple things, fresh sheets on the bed, the smell of freshly washed clothes, watching an episode of The Walking Dead, Sharing a candy bar, going to the city lake and just sitting in silence reading our Bibles. I love you how you look at me with “that look” right before you tell me that you love me. I love that you call me on each break and your lunch hour and how we both almost cry when we have to hang up.  I love that you text me just to tell me “hope your having a good day at work honey” or just to see how I am doing.

I love you more than I thought ever possible. God has given me so many reasons to love you. You opened my eyes to show me that I was worthy of being loved by God and by a man who loved God.  You are my rock in all the hard times we face and I love you for being the caring person that you are. I know now that I will never have to go through “hard times” without you.

My words all fall way to short of expressing what my heart feels. You love me just the way God created me with every little imperfection. You see past my flaws into the pit of my heart and see all the scary things about me and you love me anyway.

We are so different but so much alike in good ways. You are way more selfless than I deserve. You are my best friend, and have been for over 30 years. I am so blessed that God chose you to be my husband. I am just so very sorry that it took so long for us to realize it. I am also blessed that you feel the same way.

I love our life together. I love you. I love the way you love me, the way you came into my life on your white horse to whisk me away from it all. I was not complete until you found me. And for that I will be eternally grateful.

In the book of Ruth chapter 1 verse 16, it tells us this:

“But Ruth said: “Entreat me not to leave you, or to turn back from following after you; For wherever you go I will go; And wherever you lodge, I will lodge; Your people shall be my people, and your God, my God.”  Ruth 1:16

I will follow you till the end of my days here on earth. If you reach the shores of Heaven before me, I will wait until we can be reunited again. If by chance I die before you….I will eagerly but patiently be waiting your arrival in Heaven so I can join the angels in that heavenly chorus singing Hallelujah!

I love you my dear precious angel. You are my whole world. Thank you for showing me the way. Thank you for simply being you. You are a treasure among all.

Your wife

Jeannie

My Life With You

I was looking through some pictures, newspaper articles, and other keepsakes.  It is so much fun to reminisce and remember things about my childhood, my children when they were little, and old family photos.  I swear I think I must have kept every paper my girls colored or art project that they did in preschool!

So I think the most cherished thing I found, (sorry my darling daughters, but he must come before my children in order for things to be right with the big man upstairs), is a letter from my husband.  It is a letter he wrote me on our 1st anniversary.

MY LIFE WITH YOU

There was a time….long ago…when the sight of your eyes captured my heart.

From across the hallway I stood, mesmerized by the glow of your eyes…your skin…your hair.

And I knew I was in love.

I tried in vain to let you know how I felt about you, my precious Jeannie.

From holding you close on the dance floors of the Cedar Cinema; both of us clinging to each other like we were the life rafts of each others souls in the midst of life’s storms…..

To barging in to the girl’s bathroom when you were crying, dismayed at the thought of your parents divorcing…

To listening to you intently, as you shared your hopes, fears, dreams, and your entire LIFE with me during our long pleasurable talks…

You opened up life to possibilities that I had only dreamed about;  you broke through the very essence of my soul.  When I was around you, I felt worth something;  I felt honored by your presence… most of all, I felt LOVED.

The years I spent apart from you, my love, were years of nothingness; years of anguish, grief, and strife that were my own personal living hell.  The  drugs and alcohol were only means of escaping the harsh realities that I had made for myself;  I wallowed in self-pity and thought that happiness was something that I would never truly embrace again…like I had when you were in my life those many years ago.

And now, for the past two years, God has blessed me immeasurably with your love and compassion and commitment to me.  And now, one year later, my heart is healed from those many years I spent without you as my wife…something that I should have done so long ago.

Thank you, Jeannie Marie Davis.  For loving me;  for being my best friend;  my soul mate;  my confidante;  my lover;  my helpmate….and most of all…my beautiful wife.

Love Richard

Isn’t he the best?  I really love this man more today than I did 30 years ago.  Is that even possible?  He makes me feel like I am the most important thing in his life.  He does that by making God the most important thing in HIS life.

I am so blessed to have him as my husband.  I cherish every moment we have spent together and pray that we have many more.

You are my whole world Richard Davis.  There are no words in the English language, or any other for that matter, that can express my love for you and what you mean to me.

I only hope and pray that out in this big world that there are couples that experience this kind of love!  It is the best!

Hello! I promise I’m still alive!

So with the new year approaching, I thought I would try to get back to writing.  I miss writing in my blog but with the church, my new business, (Crations4HIM), and a semi-full time job…doesn’t leave me much spare time.

There are some very new exciting things happening for the Davis family this year…..some of which I will be talking about in a future post, and some of which I can’t reveal just yet!  At any rate I am hoping to write on a semi-routine basis after the first of the year.

Now the question at hand for all of the 2 or 3 people who still visit here to see IF I have posted anything new……What would you like to read about?  And before you answer that question you should know that most of my posts will either be about my family or about my faith.

So I will be eagerly patiently waiting for you comments.

Write to you soon I promise!

Jeannie

Wordless Wednesday!

20/365 days of blogging.

Wordless Wednesday!

Wow!

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Do We Believe God?

18/365 days of blogging.

Notice that title didn’t say do we believe IN God.  It said Do we believe God?  Believing IN God is a lot different than believing God.

For the next few days I will be blogging about a wonderful Bible study I have been revisiting.  It is a Beth Moore study and the title of it is Believing God.  Check it out online.  I think you can do the study online and you get the video’s and all right at your finger tips.

I think the study is a lot more about faith than it is believing.  The fact is that those two words are a vicious cycle that work against each other.  You have to believe to have faith and you must have faith to believe.

In the 1st chapter, verses 11-23 it says this;  “In Him also we have obtained an inheritance, being predestined according to the purpose of Him who works all things according to the counsel of His will, that we who first trusted in Christ should be to the praise of His glory.  In Him you also trusted, after you heard the word of truth, the gospel of your salvation; in whom also, having believed, you were sealed with the Holy Spirit of promise, who is the guarantee of our inheritance until the redemption of the purchased possession, to the praise of His glory.   Therefore I also, after I heard of your faith in the Lord Jesus and your love for all the saints, do not cease to give thanks for you, making mention of you in my prayers: that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of glory, may give to you the spirit of wisdom and revelation in the knowledge of Him, the eyes of your understanding being enlightened; that you may know what is the hope of His calling, what are the riches of the glory of His inheritance in the saints, and what is the exceeding greatness of His power toward us who believe, according to the working of His mighty power which He worked in Christ when He raised Him from the dead and seated Him at His right hand in the heavenly places, far above all principality and power and might and dominion, and every name that is named, not only in this age but also in that which is to come.  And He put all things under His feet, and gave Him to be head over all things to the church, which is His body, the fullness of Him who fills all in all.

God’s purpose is to offer salvation to the world, just as he planned to do long ago.  God is sovereign;  He is in charge.  When your life seems chaotic, rest in this truth:  Jesus is Lord, and God is in control.  God’s purpose to save you cannot be thwarted, no matter what evil satan may bring.

The Holy Spirit is God’s seal that we belong to Him and His deposit guaranteeing that He will do what He has promised.  The holy Spirit is like a down payment, a deposit, a validating signature on the contract.  The presence of the Holy Spirit in us demonstrates the genuineness of our faith, proves that we are God’s children and secures eternal life for us.  His power works in us to transform us now, and what we experience now is a taste of the total change we will experience in eternity.

Paul prayed that the Ephesians would know Christ better.  Christ is our model, and the more we know of Him, the more we want to be like Him.  Jesus is the same Jesus he was back in biblical times and remains that same Jesus in today’s life.  If we spend time in prayer with Him and develop a personal relationship with Him, growing our personal knowledge of Christ will change our lives tremendously!

The hope we have is not a vague feeling that the future will be positive, but it is complete assurance of certain victory through God.  This complete certainty comes to us through the Holy Spirit who is working in us.  The world fears the power of a nuclear bomb, yet we belong to the God of the universe who not only created that nuclear power but also raised Jesus Christ from the dead.  We don’t seemed to be afraid of that at all.  God’s incomparable great power is available to help us.  Nothing is impossible with Him.  We just lack the will to tap into His power.  Jesus Tells us we can do greater miracles than he did but we don’t believe it.

Why do we lack in faith?  The answer is simple….We are lazy human beings and it takes too much work.  If we would just stop and realize that what brought us to the moment of salvation was act of faith!  But it doesn’t stop there.  Having believed in Him, we are called to continue believing all He came to do and say.  Tragically some who have believed in Christ have believed little of Him since then.  He who began a work in us wants to continue to mold us into the image He wants us to be.  An image like His Son.

Do you see God’s heart?  Yes, He requires much if we’re going to fulfill a divinely ordained destiny.  I won’t kid you, but what He is prepared to do in behalf of those who are obedient staggers the imagination.

Hear this:  Anytime you put forth the time and attention into seeking God’s face and diligently reading His Word, and apply what you read to our life,you will be greatly rewarded.  God is the giver of all good things.  He wants to give you all the blessings you deserve.  Did you read that last sentence.  He wants to give you all the blessings you deserve.  Deserve?  do we deserve any blessings?  No.  But He wants to give them to us anyway.  The only requirement we have is to be obedient to Him and ONLY Him.  Living for HIM and not for the world.

Battling In God’s Army

17/365 days of blogging.

When is the last time you served in God’s Army?  When is the last time you adorned the Armor of God and went into battle for Christ?  Have you defended your faith lately?  Have you stood up for your right to worship God?

If we are calling ourselves Follower’s of Christ we should have had an answer to those questions that resembled something like “a few minutes ago” or at the very least “yesterday.”

We are at war people!  In a battle we are going to have to have soldiers who are willing to stand and be counted on. We’re living in a day when there are just too many soldiers who are AWOL (absent without leave). There are also many who are pretending to be in the Lord’s army who haven’t even enlisted.

What does it take to qualify as a soldier for Jesus Christ?

I didn’t know how real the devil was, even after I was saved, until I started walking with Jesus about 10 years ago.  I had no idea what sin I had been bound in until I walked away from the world and started serving Jesus.  THAT is when I found out that satan was as real as could be.

Salvation is not anything that we can just lie down at or take for granted. The Word of God lets us know we need to be soldiers and do our part and make sure that we are GOOD soldiers for Christ. In order to be a good soldier for Christ, God’s Word teaches us that there are qualifications that every one who is in God’s army must have.

Those who fight for the devil fight WITHOUT a cause, but children of God have a cause to fight for. What is the cause;  their very soul, their children’s souls, and the lost who are around them.

People make being a soldier for Christ seem so easy.  Many say “Well all you need to do is go to church” or “As long as you go on the important days like Easter and Christmas.”  It takes more than just going to church to be a part of the family of God.  Not everyone who says they are a part of the “family of God” is actually a part of it.  We have to make an attempt at righteous living.  Many people proclaim a lot of things, lifting up their cause at one time or another.  But you don’t eve hear people say “I live righteously.”

Psalm 4:3 says this:  But know that the Lord has set apart for Himself him who is godly;  The Lord will hear when I call to Him.”  The godly are those who are faithful and devoted to God.  We can be confident that when we call upon Him, He will hear our prayers and answer them. We are not attempting to live a righteous life, by our own guilt we feel inadequate to God’s help.  God wants us to know that he doesn’t call the equipped, he equips the called.  It is those who claim righteous living and say they are fighting the good fight that slowly become AWOL.  When we choose to live in the world instead of following God, we are not a part of His army.

In the book of Matthew, the 28th chapter, verse 19 Jesus gives us a commandment.  It wasn’t a suggestion or even “if you feel like it” comment.  He tells us to “Go therefore and make disciples of all the nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, teaching them to observe all things that I have commanded you;”

We can give God all the lip service that we want to and maybe others will believe that we are living a righteous life, and think we are holy.  But truth is when we are walking with God and holding satan’s hand….that is not righteous living.

Do we qualify?  Or are we pretending to be in the army?  Are you AWOL today?  Or are you ready to put on the Armor of God and go into battle.

This world is full of battles that we will certainly win some of and lose some of.  However as born again believers in Christ, we have the victory of knowing that Jesus has already won the war.  We know the outcome.  We know that Heaven waits for us.  Our battle is letting others know that Heaven waits for them too.  It is our Job to lead others to Christ.  If God’s plan were for Jesus to do it then he would have never taken Him into Heaven to sit at His right hand awaiting His signal to return for us.

Folks, I believe that the return of the Son is closer than we think.  God has already instituted the draft.  He has already showed us the way;  Given us a dotted line to sign;  Given us the physical;  and certainly prepared us for battle.  Let’s put on our Armor of God and go into battle for His kingdom.

Are you ready for battle?

Throwback Thursday

16/365 days of blogging.

edit* This was supposed to have posted automatically on Thursday but it didn’t.  So I posted it today.  Sorry it is not Thursday and sorry it is late.  :)

Throwback Thursday!  This is my handsome Husband when he was 18.  And for grins I threw in my graduation pic also.  I think we still make a pretty awesome couple!

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I fell in love with this man a little over 32 years ago and love him more today than I did back then.  I didn’t know that was possible until we finally got married almost 10 years ago.  Sad that it took so long to be together but very happy to be Mrs. Richard Davis!

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